Dear Kilin,I have not heard from you in a long, long time. So I ask: How are you doing?Is everything ok? I know you can never stay in one place for long, so you've probably been everywhere and seen alot of things within this period of time. But whatever it is, I hope you are doing okay.Whenever I think of you, I see you with your eyes closed and that dreamy, timeless expression that used to make me a little worried whernever I saw it, because it meant that you were far away somewhere in the skies, sometimes in the clouds, sometimes amongst the stars. You know, once I actually wanted to join you there because you looked so happy, so contented that I thought you might never want to open your eyes because life was so much happier there.During those times when we were exploring, sometimes you would react to situations rather...childishly, with nonsensical reasoning and all. Somehow I thought the dreaming had done to your head and had tried to shake some sense out of you. Little did I know that you would open the door for me, give me my wings and set me free. I think you were lonely, or maybe I gave you the key so you could open the door for me, because I was the Boy Who Sits in the Shadows ans Smiles, because I was too afraid to do anything. Whatever it was, now I can get lost in the stars like you did and maybe I'll find you there, drifting, with that smile and all, I guess I have to thank you for that.Well, I tell you honestly, I am happy, this 'contented happy' as you so put it. But I am a little lonely, and that's why I wrote to you in the first place. So, are you happy? I still remember those moments of sheer ectasy, when everything you always wanted came true, because the world wasn't as bad as you thought and the truth was that I wished on a shooting star for you, but it doesn't really matter. Tears were coming out of your eyes, rolling down your cheeks, each teardrop so pretty and shinier that diamonds, because they were tears of joy, cause when you get too happy your heart hurts in a good way but the tears still come out. You know what I mean.I've always liked your eyes. Even though there was only one eye I could see, it shone with emotions more than any other eyes I've come across. When it was happy, I liked it, but when it was full of hope I liked it even more. You kept on saying everything was futile but yet you hoped for all kinds of things; I could see them all, I could tell. It was one of those ways you used to make yourself feel strong, because you thought that was how you were supposed to be. You are strong, but not that type of strong. It's those type of strong that everyone wants to be but just can't. Not muscles, which can be built up over time, but more of something that was born within. But then maybe you really thought that everything was futile but you were still clinging on to that last ray of hope inside you. I dunno.I found the little amulet you gave me long ago, when you thought we were parting ways forever and gave me something to remember you by. Remember the little carvings on the amulet that we couln't figure out? well, I went to an expert and he deciphered it. I forgot the language, but it said simply: Some things were built to last forever. So I guess you were wrong, Kilin, when you said that nothing lasts forever. Some things will surpass even time and space itself, and will continue on and on. Maybe it's time to live life all over again, but this time the way you wanted it with all the bad parts left out.Well, there's not much else to say, but I think if you were to see me again, the silence would tell you everything you need to know, even more than what I'm telling you know. You should visit sometime, I'm always gonna be here, unless you need someone to accompany you to the place you want to go, then I'll be next to you, behind your back to catch you when you fall.You know, I'll never forget what you told me that night, when you opened up all my possibilities: Even though stars are not forever, big or small, from the start to the end, they shine all the way through. Well, if that's the case, then you're a really shiny star, fallen from the heavens to help people glow from inside out, forever.Thank You.Yours Truly,IrithenDon't ask me why I'm doing this.
I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
